Friday, August 26, 2005

Never alone

you're never alone
though distance hide you
you're never alone
though time disguise you
you're never alone
because I am with in my prayers
and if you stop and listen
you can hear them rushing to you in the air

you're not alone
whatever comes your way
I will face it with you
whatever trials bar the highway
I will finish the course with you
you're not alone
even though you're far from home
because home goes with you in your heart
so you will always carry the best part

When the big sun is setting in the warm september sky
and you're wishing someone's there to hold you tight,
It'll be alright.
just say the word and I'll send the wind
to whisper in your ear
and tell you, that I'll always be your friend.
I'll send a breeze to caress your lips with a tender kiss
and I'll send a star to grant you, every single wish

you're not alone
even though you're standing there
so far from home
you're not alone
because my heart is broken down the middle line
and I think it is standing beside you
claiming love's eternal vow to be there for all time
you're not alone
no matter what may happen
no matter how the days
rush by us so quickly
they can never erase

a spirit's yearning to be with it's love
and that's where my spirit is
chasing after you,
after you, my love

You're never alone

the wide open spaces
have never been my home
I'm not the type
who likes to roam all alone

And in this wilderness
in this desert of life
I'm looking for the spring
I'm looking for the fountain of love

Here it comes
Here it comes
shooting upward outward to me
like a fountain
raining down love, from my Father
raining down love, from my brothers
raining down love, from my sisters
raining down love, from my lover
Here it comes
Here comes the water of life
which springs from the fountain
the fountain of love

so when I'm walking
I'm feeling all alone right now
If I left my eyes above
or left or right and up and down

when I'm falling and I start to tumble down
as I feell my face collide with the ground
oh yeah, the ground starts shaking
the earth is rumbling and

Here it comes
Here it comes
and lifts me off the ground

Here it comes
Here it comes
carrying me upward outward from here
like a fountain
raining down love from the Father
raining down love from the brothers
raining down love from the sisters
raining down love from my lover
Here it comes
Here comes the water of life
springing from the fountain
the fountain of love

we all hold the power
raise another in the fountain
or let them fall
I'm telling you now is the hour
raise up your voice
raise up your hand
and join the fountain of love

Here it comes
Here it comes
shooting upward outward through us
like a fountain
raining down the love of the Father
raining down the love of the Brothers
raining down the love of the Sisters
raining down the love of the lovers of Christ

no you're alone
when you're near the fountain
the of love
Here it comes

Sunday, August 21, 2005

what if I
jumped from a cliff,
do you think I could fly?
on the wings of the love that we have
you and I
what if I
reached out a hand
would you grab onto it?
and pull me up and hold me tight
you and I
what if I
what if I
said I love you more anything
do you think you would buy?
the smile on my face and the love my eyes

do you think you would laugh
if showed my heart
do you think you could share this moment
only this moment, only this moment
with me under the stars
their light showing us where are
are we meant for this moment
or are meant for something more
I'm not quit sure

what if I
jumped from a cliff
do you think I could fly
on the wings of the love that we have
you and I
what if I
reached out a hand
would you grab onto it
would you pull and hold me tight
you and I
what if I
what if I
said I love you more anything
do you think you would buy?
the smile on my face and the love in my eyes
what if we
what if I
what if you
what if we
what if I

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Socrates once said..........and I think it's hilarious


"By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll become happy; If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher."

- Socrates

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Saint Augustine once said.............. and I hereby give him my stamp of approval

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all."

-dedicated to: Amanda
p.s. hopefully you're not lost yet :)

My wishing well

So now the happy days are gone, for the moment
you have left me all alone
and though we talk it's not the same
somehow somewhere we lost
our corporate aim, and there you go
and there you go

I wish you were here with me
right now
I wish you were in my arms
somehow
I wish you could hear my heart crying out
I want you forever and ever and ever

I wish I was strong enough to pull you
back to me so I could show you I'm true
I wish I could write your name in the stars
maybe then you'd come back to me
maybe then you'd my heart beating
I love you, I love you, I love you,
I love you, I love you, I love you
As long as the stars remain true
that's how long I'm going to love you

I know I broke it, that's the truth
I know I'm the one who ripped out your heart
now I'm fighting my own shame
now I'm dying from the pain
and I know you still you love me
and you know I still love you
but i know you're going to have to choose
but before you do

I wish you were here with me
right now
I wish you were in my arms
somehow
I wish you could hear my heart crying out
I want you forever, and ever, and ever

I wish I was strong enough to pull you
back to me so I can show you I'm true
I wish I could write my love in the stars
so you could see it wherever you are
maybe then you'd come back to me
maybe then you'd hear my heart beating
I love you , I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
as long as the stars remain true
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
that's how long this will be true
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you

Friday, August 12, 2005

I love you

The music vibrating
the crowd starts screaming
the base kicking off the chart topping song
everyone starts clapping
my heart is shaking
the spotlight shines down, now it's on

This is the part
where I wake up
this is the part
where my dream hits reality
this is the start
of my everyday
in the morning when I wake up
I'm not famous yeah

Some people dream
of living in the spotlight
yeah but I don't, cause I can't see
when the spotlight shines
cause it hides all I want to see

Yeah I want to be
outside of the spotlight
so I can see
you look at me
and tell me that I'm all you need
cause in your arms is the only place
where I can dream

Yeah I want to be
extraodinary too, to only you
I only love one and that's you
that's you
I don't love the spotlight
I don't love the spotlight
I don't love the spotlight
I love you

You could give me fame
but I don't want it
you could give me power
but who knows what I do with it
you could make me rich
but that wouldn't compare
to all that we have shared

so if I had to choose
between the two
the spotlight or you
I'd choose you

I want to be
outside of the spotlight
so I can see
you look at me
tell me that I am all you need
cause in your arms is the only place
where I can dream

yeah I want to be
extraordinary too, to only you
I only love one that's the truth
I love you
I don't love the spotlight
I don't love the spotlight
I don't love the spotlight
I love you
I love you

Thursday, August 11, 2005

the little boy

Hidden down deep inside
is the broken little boy
who can only cry
buried beneath the pains
is a small child
who is frightened when it rains
Hidden away behind the gate
are the fears
of what the years will take
Deeper then the eyes can see
deeper still, if you want to believe,
is the boy who doesn't want to be found
who loves the life underground
But someone shoved aside the curtains
hiding life's irrepressible view
and now that little boy is feeling
things he never thought were true

like love
like joy
like peace
like love
like happiness
like satisfaction
like love
like hope
like dreams
like confidence
that life will work out
In the end

Monday, August 08, 2005

There's a hole (in my heart)

There’s a hole
Punched right through my heart
There’s a hole
My heart partially ripped apart
There’s a hole
That I alone established
There’s a hole
From my detachedness
There’s a hole
Where I should be whole
There’s a hole
Where there wasn’t before
There’s a hole
From the choice I made
There’s a hole
And there’s a price to pay
There’s a hole
From the game I chose to play
There’s a hole
Will it ever be covered
There’s a hole
Will it cost all I’ve discovered
There’s a hole
I’m fading quickly
There’s a hole
Will you forgive me
There’s a hole
But it’s not my own
There’s a hole
From the seed I’ve sown
There’s a hole
But it’s yours as well
There’s a hole
In which the pain dwells
There’s a hole
False love made you part of the deal
There’s a hole
Can love ever be real
There’s a hole
Punched right through your heart
There’s a hole
Your heart partially ripped apart
There’s a hole
Where you should be whole
There’s a hole
Where there was love before
There’s a hole
That can’t be covered
There’s a hole
You curse what you uncovered
There’s a hole
In the middle of my heart
There’s a hole
Tearing me continually apart
There’s a hole
So leave me to die
And I’ll leave you to cry
All the tears that you’ll cry
So leave me to die
With false tears in my eyes
So leave me to die
Don’t even say goodbye
Leave me alone
With my shame before my eyes
And my mind circling around the why
There’s a hole
Punched right through my heart
There’s a hole
My heart partially ripped apart
There’s a hole
Because I was unfaithful
There’s a hole
I will never heal

Saturday, August 06, 2005

why?

why do I
feel left behind
in the middle of the race
in the expanse of time
why do I
always seem to lose
at whatever I try
everytime I choose
why do I
always seem to fail
when the chips are down
I can never exhale
why do I
why do I
or maybe
why shouldn't I
be the one who stands tall
in the middle of it all
in the middle of it all
why shouldn't I
have plans of my own
plans to unfold
a world to be shown
why shouldn't I
Be confident in the storm
poiont my ship toward the horizon
and challenge any and every form
why shouldn't I
yes, why shouldn't I
take control of who I am
take control of my life
take control of my life
but I still now that it's not my own
and this is something I've always known
even in the pain of the trials
even in the middle of all the denials
so why shouldn't I and why shouldn't you
stand up to the plate, stand up and be true
I can't ask you, so please don't ask me
because only God knows what we can be
So the why of everything lies in desire
so if you have the will to have the faith
then get up and start the fire
then you will have find the why
in this life and found joy in the fullest
so why shouldn't you and why shouldn't I
learn to live this life before we die

Friday, August 05, 2005

Essences

essences of the world often blow to me
the fragrances of love so often bittersweet
I remember holding what I now only smell
will you forever be an essence? only time will tell
whether or not love can be rebuilt again
on the fragrance of forever not the past's dead end.
swiftly and softly the fragrance dances by
and I cannot hold it for it has it's own when and why
it will stop where it wishes and though I wish it to stay
yet it may stop on my doorstep or leave me in the gray
here I am again wandering through the garden's calls,
essences of what was and what will be, essences of love calling to me
but I cannot help but stop and wonder upon the flower
that stands wilted in the center of the garden upon the twilight hour
I cannot help but curse my own, inconsistency,
for there right before me is the portrait of apathy
once upon a time an essence quite, quite, rare
an essence that I still long to hold and to share
had drifted from this rose that now forgotten lies
to bring to me new meaning an to bring my soul to life
blissfully I lived in the midst of love's essences
until I broke the beauty of the spell with my decadence
then an angry wind, which had all right to be,
swept away the essence, the essence that gave life to me
then and only then did i begin to realize
that I was still living in my empty pride
then and only then did I see the truth behind the lies
then and only then could I see through my disguise
for I had sought the essences of beauty in everything I knew
but I had never once for myself made them true
the lies now had caught me in the midst of my garden rare
and for once I knew a pain that I hope no other will share
the essences of life are these and only these
to learn to love another and to never appease
the mind's lust for it's own way and it's own path
for in that way one will find only the essence of wrath
but now I stand alone again in the garden of my dreams
and wonder where I would be without my selfish schemes
if I would be smelling the essence, still,
perhaps someday, somewhere...... I will