Friday, September 16, 2005

Live (again)

Can I teach myself to live again
teach myself to love
teach myself to try again
or give me up for lost

Somewhere deep inside
something tells me to get moving
but my heart is still stuck here
used to all the endless losing

Can I learn anew a perfect view
learn anew how I see You
learn anew the pathway straight
and enter at the narrow gate

Pathway narrow
pathway small
taunting pathways nearby call
but I must follow only one
so that I may reach the Son

Can I teach myself to live again
teach myself to love
should teach myself to try again
or give me up for lost

I cannot lay down
without a fight
I cannot fall down
tonight

I'm going to teach myself to live again
teach myself to love
I'm going to teach myself to try again
because Christ paid the cost

I am not lost
I am not lost

I'm going to teach myself to live again
teach myself to love
I'm going to teach myself to try again
because He alone is worth everything
and He paid the cost

Monday, September 12, 2005

Marriage (what I think it should be)

There’s a ring on my hand
A ring on yours
Together we’re walking toward
Heaven’s doors
And I look
At you
You look
At me
And in your eyes
I can see eternity

We are one you and I
Two hearts beating side by side
Life is a story still untold
But with each breath it unfolds
Hand in hand, fingers entwined
Chasing the wonders of passing time

There’s a power of direction in your hand
There’s a need for protection from life’s demands
And so together we can fly
You and I
Spaces in between are shrinking
Every day
And now I am seeing
That though I can live without you
Part of me can’t find;
Anything without you

So I hold you
And you hold me too
I feel your heart beat against my chest
Every beat only pulls me closer
And it keeps beating without a rest
A rose in on the table between the two
Me and you
Your eyes are shining like stars
From a galaxy so far
And you make me wonder
I sit and ponder
All the events that brought us
All the things that taught us
All the lies that broke us
How life betrothed us
I am amazed
By the look on your face
And I am amazed
That you’re with me
And I’m with youNow
I’m holding,The only one,
that’s the truth

Here I am a lovesick fool
After twenty years of lying next to you
It never died but sometimes it faded away
But never for more the ½ second every hundredth day
Because when love is meant to be
That’s when we find everything That we’ll ever need

We are one you and I
Two hearts beating side by side
Life is a story still untold
But with each breath it unfolds
Hand in hand, fingers entwined
Chasing the wonders of passing time

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I'm losing places
losing time
the changing faces
that I find
everywhere
I think I'm blind

cause I don't want to be here
this is not where I dreamed I would be

there's nothing but my fear here
and my insecurities

Choices are killing me
my own words my enemy
personally I think I'm done
cause I've lost track of love's true light
so I'm standing in the night
praying for the darkness to break
praying that this a dream, that my pain is fake

sight is fading
from my eyes
my world disappating
everything goes black and white
ghosts arise in the night
i'm scared
I wonder if anyone cares

cause I don't want to be here
this is not where I dreamed I'd be

there's nothing but my fear here
and my insecurities

Choices are killing me
my own words my enemy
personally I think I'm done
cause I've lost track of love's true light
now I'm standing in the night
praying for the darkness to break
praying that this is a dream, that my pain is fake

Thursday, September 08, 2005

The wait

So I'm waiting to find
if we're going to rhyme
together or be apart forever

I've got hurt on my mind
betrayal's so sublime
so run away or come back to stay

I broke your heart
and tore mine apart
then I gave all the little pieces
back to you,
cause now I want you,
that's the truth

I thought my heart was back in place
I thought we could erase
the tragedy
but I was imagining
hoping on hope
but the truth i've been perceiving
knowing I'd cry,, again

so here comes the tears of the break
tears of the love you tried to fake
but if it's not real then let it go
it's better to move on
then get lost in a show

I know I deserve it
to have my heart broken
because of my own sin
so please just let the truth be spoken..

If you love me let me know
but right now you're confused
and I think you're ready to go

so just lay it all out so I can see
the truth in front of me
and I can face the agony

if goodbye is what is coming
don't try to soften it
just stand right up and say it
and I'll be a man and take it

I'll take it with a hand over my heart for protection
and my mind still facing your direction
as I walk away..
because I know you have a piece of me
and with you it will stay

See I'm not upset or angry
just hurt..
so please don't play me
the only cure is the truth
so be honest with yourself
even if I'm just another boy on the shelf
of those who have loved you
at least I'll know where I stand to you